Sunday, June 12, 2005 @5:09 am
Post concert blues once again. it ALWAYS happens. like ALWAYSSS.
PnC. was. considered. a. success. omg. i'm. lovin. it. missing. it.
I miss PnC alreadY!! it's 5am in the morning. and PnC ended abt say 7 to 8 hours
AGO. i was really sleepy just now. but peee and leeen and cheng woke me up. now i'm wide awake, they're sleeping. i cant sleep. there's a lot in my mind. i'm really tired due to all the activities.
but i'm not let off!! on tope of being in the band committee, i still have to worry abt radio and print journ, which i have to rush like mad. there's no time for radio, there's no time for print journ.. not that these are not priorities. but because concert was just last night. u know. it's my concert. no one elses. not the audience's. it's my band's. we put in so much so much effort into this. the committee slogged our way thru this whole period of time, ever since rondeau was over, to get this concert over and done with.
come to think of it, i really put in a lot for this band. i really am glad in some ways that i was given this chance. dont ask me why i like to be a slave. nono. it's not that. but the experience in organising something this big really is something to be proud of. u have no idea how diffidult it is running a concert solely based on students okay. it's not easy at all. what's more, as big scale as the concert this time round. and lucky we didnt slack and go to LT26. really.
pnc was just great. i had so much fun making so much noise with the clique aka. horn girls, shintya, trombones.
horn choir, according to many pple, wasnt very good when we played during the concert. after the concert, as the guests were leaving, we played one last last time. and mr tan tot it sounded very nice. oops. we really were too nervous. sad that zhong qing couldn't come. i hope we can play some time with him.
one thing that upset me, tho, was that my sis couldnt turn up. my cousin wasnt feeling well. i understand. not that i dont understand that there's camp laa. but seriously i was rather upset.. because, what kinda moral support am i getting from my own pple??? i nv felt so disappointed in my life that pple couldnt turn up you know. nessa was abt to give the extra ticket to mindy. and then mindy was afraid to go because our leader seemed upset. i know that camp shouldnt come out. but even if there's NO camp, YOU GUYS NEVER EVER TURN UP ANYWAY. u all tell me straight to the point that u don like band music. so u don come. and even if i don like what u guys are doing, i try my best to support all of u. but has anyone ever spared a thought for me? no. no one wished me all the best for my concert.
prolly a lot of pple didnt know i was having concert. what's more. finally someone is INTERESTED in what i'm doing and wants to attend the concert. but no. she doesnt wanna upset another party. poor sister of mine. she couldnt come cos no one would go with her. so disappointed was i that i really broke down before the concert. i was so excited that my sis was gonna come, and when i heard that mint was coming, i was even more glad. but neither turned up. i cried.. i really cried so badly. this kinda thing should nv happen just half an hour before the concert. u know? never. ever.
and u all claim to be my pple.
/can i say i'm totally infatuated? but if i havent specifically told you that i like you, don't think too much. (= \